extravagant dearms

I am Mme. Loisel, I am the wife of a clerk. I am "one of those pretty and charming girls who are sometimes, as if by a mistake of destiny, born in a family of clerks." (Guy De Maupassant). I have "no dowry, no expectations, no means of being known, understood, loved, wedded, by any rich and distinguished man" (Guy De Maupassant). I had let myself "be married to a little clerk at the Ministry of Public Instruction."(Guy De Maupassant). I dress very plain for I have no money to dress well.  I am "as unhappy as though" I "had really fallen from" my "proper station; since with women there is neither caste nor rank; and beauty, grace, and charm act instead of family and birth. Natural fineness, instinct for what is elegant, suppleness of wit, are the sole hierarchy, and make from women of the people the equals of the very greatest ladies." (Guy De Maupassant). I feel like i should be "born for all the delicacies and all the luxuries." (Guy De Maupassant). I suffer from the "poverty" of my household, "from the wretched look of the walls, from the worn-out chairs, from the ugliness of the curtains." (Guy De Maupassant).  I think "of the silent antechambers hung with Oriental tapestry, lit by tall bronze candelabra, and of the two great footmen in knee breeches who sleep in the big armchairs, made drowsy by the heavy warmth of the hot-air stove." and "the long salons fatted up with ancient silk, of the delicate furniture carrying priceless curiosities, and of the coquettish perfumed boudoirs made for talks at five o'clock with intimate friends, with men famous and sought after, whom all women envy and whose attention they all desire." (Guy De Maupassant). This is the life I should be living in, the life I dream of.